a glimpse of sharon world...

u know what i realized tonight? as much as i want to and as much as i've tried, i can't walk away from my friendship fiasco. i've tried running away from it, ignoring it...nothing works. even when everything in me tells me to leave it alone...i can't. why? because it doesn't feel right. despite everything that's gone on something in me tells me to keep going. i want to tell that thing inside me to shut up, because it hurts everytime i think about it, and it seems so unfair that i have to keep trying, when it seems the other side doesn't even try at all, and yet...the voice never goes away. i've gotten different people to pray about this (thanks everyone...justin, rani, deb...and everyone else...*haha. sorry. i'm getting a little sleepy here...) and i think this may be a result of their prayers.

so...i give up trying to fight that voice. i give up trying to fight You, Lord. i'm sorry i tried to do things my way. please forgive me. comfort me. strengthen me. guide me. help me surrender this situation into Your hands. help me surrender everything to Your plan.

*this is so hard. surrendering. but possible. at least i know now, that if it doesn't work...it's because it's God's will*