counting down the days

it has been pretty much a month since i wrote this post and i wish i could say that i've been nothing but patient, productive, and totally calm, but that would be a lie. instead, i'll be brutally honest because i feel that i owe you guys at least that much.

truth is, i'm going a little insane with the whole waiting thing this time around. compared to previous years, there's something different about this one: there's more to gain and more to lose, or at least it feels that way. maybe it's because i'm older now or because with each attempt i've invested more and more of myself into the process. who knows, but whatever. all i know is this waiting game sucks! i'm counting down the days of march. and trying not to bite off my fingernails in the process.

matthew 6 has never been more comforting or needed.

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." - Matthew 6:34

the waiting continues...