the mid-way point

today is mid-term evaluation day for my internship. i really hope i don't get a whole bunch of ones and twos (out of five). :/ that would just...suck.

can't believe my internship is already half over. only 5 more months left of free labour! yay!

al st. louis | freedom

taken off his website, when words are spoken.

FREEDOM

10:48pm
Apr 17th 2005

In the beam of skylight my twilight zones in on the exact location of pimps ghosts and goblins goblin all of our natural resources but have we become the same?
Because most of us gobble gobble like feathered fowls living foul trying hard to peck our way through the maze this coop… driving coupes sedans jeeps and trucks… lost smoking fags and rolling blunts in hopes that the material will subside the yearning of the spiritual
But who designed this style of freedom where my brothers and sisters are starving on my mothers land?
And are we truly free working a 9 to 5 to survive in world where survival is a must?
Trust in God they say and he will see you through they say
But no one is saying how to trust in a being that doesn’t seem to be seeing the plights that I might go through on a day to day
So I find freedom in nickel sacs rolling zigs to zags just tryna get back to the man that I used to be… free
Before I became who I am… I was
But societal pressures now pressure my blood making it boil so my mercury rises… but skies the limit where God is and I’m doing all that I can to find it
You see I was… now lost in foreign lands doing all that I can this man in me just wants to be… free again
To express my deepest thoughts… to say what is and to refute what is not… to stand and fight for the right to be heard… to vote like my forefathers did carried on boats like my forefathers were… then to break the chains of slavery allowing my future seeds freedom like my forefathers now are
A star in my own right… but still got my own plights… so with pens and papers I write the whole truth… and nothing but… freedom of speech is nothing but… and somebody said that the truth shall set me free… but… there always seems to be a but…
So brothas hustle making ends meet… but ends are low so sistas depend on subsidy with no father to father the fatherless there’s no money to give to the homeless so more and more homes go up in B-town but downtown more and more lives are free to lay down on vents
Everybody cries for freedom… but most ain’t willing to search for her ‘cause she’s found way down deep within
And searching takes a bit of time and a whole lot of effort… but who has time in this new age of technology that is supposed to be free-ing up our time… cell phones fast cars palms on-stars…
And poor kids… ‘cause all parents see stars in ‘em but because their not they try hard to live free through them…
Gobble gobble… between work and managing a family where does it all go?
Gobble gobble… time is necessity and freedom a must so parents try hard to have both dividing freedom into mini blocks of little time while balancing 2 ‘n 3 jobs… 3 ‘n 4 lives… 4 ‘n 5 personalities
But personally if you were to ask me about freedom… I’d tell you that it is a state of mind…
What you envision you become… and only those who can stretch beyond known mental limits encompass freedom
So I make time to take time and find that place where my soul is at rest and unwind from stress filled days… because while society continues to stress subliminally sayin’… you need more pay to be free… I realize that I don’t
Freedom is where I walk… Freedom is where I stand… Freedom is knowing who I am… and Freedom is not giving a damn who you perceive me to be…
Freedom is waking every morning thanking your God for being blessed… and Freedom is knowing deep down on the inside… that you truly are as free as you Choose to be!

9:04pm
Apr 20th 2005
Created by Al St. Louis

winterlicious 2007



tonight, thanks to justin's persistence in making dinner reservations during winterlicious, we had dinner at auberge du pommier. the restaurant was homey, comfortable, and the atmosphere was so...relaxing. as for the service, even though we were probably the youngest people there (minus the little children with their family), the service was still excellent - unlike at other restuarants where they treat their younger customers like crap. with respect to the food...well...i'll just say that my tastebuds had the time of their lives yesterday. :d there was literally a party going on in my mouth which lasted 1.5 hours straight. the food was absolutely amazing. i'll never be able to eat salmon again. haha. anyway, i know i'll never be able to describe the food, so here are some pics.


starters: salted olives and some kind of spread they gave us for our bread.


appetizers: Salad d’Hiver // Potage of Golden Potato & French Shallot


main courses: Salmon Grillée // Entrecôte de Veau


desserts: Warm Brioche & Butter Pudding // Tart au Chocolat // Mignardise


great restaurant, great food, great company...thanks justin for a great night - i'm a lucky girl! :)

snowflakes keep fallin' on my head.



well, the canadian winter has finally found its way to toronto. snow is on the ground, it's not abnormally warm, and things feel normal again. there's something about snow that makes me feel like a 6 year old...i love it! i love the way it crunches beneath your boots, the way it falls and sticks to your hair and coat, the way it sparkles in the light of street lamps at night, and the way it covers the earth, making it look like someone spilled a bag of frosting sugar everywhere. yep, snow is great! well, until it turns into brown slushy crap. ughh.

so get on your toques, scarves, mittens, boots, and winter coats and go on outside! just remember, stay away from the yellow snow patches. o_O

monday nights on global



i used to think that prison break followed by heroes was good, but now monday nights on global have gone from awesome to freakin' awesome. prison break, heroes, and 24 all in a row?! good thing i'm not in school anymore. bah hah.

the craziness starts at 8pm. i'll see you at the tv.

relient k | be my escape

I’ve given up on giving up slowly,
I’m blending in so You won’t even know me
Apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention
Is my one last shot at redemption
Cause I know to live you must give your life away

And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because

I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because

I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because

I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging
You to be my escape.

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You

So were You
_________________

bumpy or not, as long as i go down this road hand-in-hand with Him, I'll be just fine. :)

2 . 0 . 0 . 7

happy new year everyone. :)

do you think that jan 1st sets the stage for how the rest of the year will turn out?
hope not, or else i'm in for a bumpy ride.

from me to you...

google people = creative geniuses

from the olympics to chinese new year, you can always tell when it's a 'special day' by looking at the google homepage banner.

exhibit A:

"happy birthday edvard munch!"

i'm always so impressed by their banners, and today...well today is no exception. how the google people come up with this great stuff is beyond me. here's how my happy birthday edvard munch banner would look:

"happy birthday edvard munch - please don't be offended."

...and this is why i'm not part of the awesome google people creative genius team. heh.

give me my picture back



i don't know why, but for some reason, the first time i saw this commercial last year there were freakin' tears in my eyes. t e a r s. i kid you not. it's hard enough holding it together when the grandpa pulls out the picture of "right wing" son, but when his grandson scores and he announces it to everyone in the stands all proud and everything...omg...

freakin' timmys and their freakin' coffee commercials. *sniff*

anyway, i was watching tv the other night and it came on again. this can only mean one thing. winter's coming/here. that, or the olympics are on again.

...and suddenly i have a craving for donuts.