hello world! :) well, right now i'm at my uncle's place!!! lemme see....my cousin Danielle came up from California...so it was GREAT seeing her again and getting to play with her :) we played hide-and-seek. again. i'm getting too big for this game - i barely fit in the closets anymore!! :( booooo to growing up. anyway, then i got to see my cousin Edward - he's a little one. three months :) he's super cute! although he can't quite talk yet but he does a lot of baby munbling. heehee...it's so cute! he's so big now! and long...he's gonna be a tall one when he grows up! anyway, i'll blog more later...Danielle wants to play pinball....she's so silly! she's "growing taller than a Christmas tree" (climbing the other side of the stairs) and then "shrinking to smaller than an ant". ahhahaha. those were direct quotes. okay! pinball time!...

i was just about to go to bed, but then i looked out the window...

now, the view from my room isn't anything too extraordinary. at this moment, from my window i can see houses, streetlights, the road, outlines of trees, and falling snowflakes. it's beautiful. everything is covered by a thin layer of snow. i'm not sure what it is about this moment, but i'm captivated. it's so serene. so tranquil. so still. so quiet. so breathtaking. so this is what it's like for everything to be still...there's one verse that is repeating itself over and over and over again in my head.

"be still and know that I am GOD".

thank You, Lord. thank You for this moment.

i miss fall - i miss the beauty of different coloured leaves, but winter's not so bad... :)

isn't it funny how much words can affect someone? they can make a person laugh, cry, happy, sad - the list goes on. they can offer comfort, betray, encourage or destroy. never underestimate what they can do. never underestimate the how good they can make someone feel. never underestimate how much they can hurt.

actually, no. i take back what i said before. it's not that funny, really.

you never know whom you might offend - even if unintentional. it may seem like nothing, but you never know who may come across your words. word something the wrong way, and you may end up hurting or offending people you never meant to.

don't say something for the sake of saying it. think first.

i know that i've said many hurtful things out of anger, pride or hurt. i underestimated. and i'm sorry.

Ginny Owens | Own Me

Got a stack of books, so i could learn how to live
many are left half read, covered by the cobwebs on my shelf
and i, got a list of laws growing longer everyday
and if i keep plugging away
maybe one day i'll perfect myself

oh but all of my labour, seems to be in vain
and all of my laws just cause me more pain
so i fall before You, in all of my shame
ready and willing to be changed

Own me, take all that I am
and Heal me, with the blood of the Lamb
Mold me, with Your gracious hand
Break me till I'm only Yours
Own me

Oh You call me daughter, and You take my pain
and You run to meet me, when I cry Your name
so I fall before You, in all of my shame
Lord I am willing to be changed

Own me, take all that I am
and Heal me, with the Blood of the Lamb
Mold me, by Your gracious hand
Break me till I'm only Yours

Own me.

Lord, this is so hard. continue to break me so i can learn what it truly is to have You own every single part of me - even my inmost being. control my thoughts, control my actions. help me give everything to You. invade my soul.

what a wierd night.

well...today was quite the interesting one. :P Leo came up from TO and it was super great to see him again, and talk to him a bit - it's been awhile. so basically after he came, justin and i went to take him out for a burger...on our one card. hahaha. because we are students. and we have no money. so yah! but he liked it (cause the burgers are quite the yummy!) so that was good :) then it was off to jon's house where we started watching ice age, and then we went to Mel's to meet some people for dinner...

this is where the wierd stuff began. so yah!! i was seated next to this really....uhhhmmmm..."interesting" guy. he's quite...i don't even know how to describe him. creepy? yah. definitely. wierd? yes. annoying? totally. usually he's alright, but today he was bad news. REALLY bad news. he kept saying things like, "can i sleep on your shoulder? it's warm and fuzzy" or "do you want me to keep your chair warm?" okay...what the hell???!!?!??!?! who asks someone those kinds of questions?!?!?!...especially when you know that the person you're asking is already taken. *sigh* it's not even like this is the first something like this happened (it was the same guy last time too...) so many problems on so many levels. that got me really angry during dinner. total disrespect to me, justin, and me & justin. i was rather upset actually...good thing that's over and done with.

so after that whole episode thing i didn't really feel like going to ccf (b/c that guy would be there too) so me justin leo and jon went back to jon's place and we watched the Count of Monte Cristo. hahaha. this is my second time watching it in two days. :) but it's an excellent movie. then we came back to our dorms where justin and i had a really good long talk. :)

anyway that was basically my day. i'm still kinda mad about the whole dinner ordeal thing, but i'm more annoyed than anything.

so many problems...*shaking head*

Sharon's venting for the day:

just got back from choir and i'm feeling kinda bleh. bleh bleh bleh. i don't like choir. sometimes it's enjoyable...but usually it's just really....yucky. my choir director is really argh. very sarcastic and can be extremely mean at times. he gave us 2 weeks to learn a completely new song by Brahms in german. GERMAN! now how am i supposed to learn it...in two weeks? i don't even speak chinese - how can u expect me to sing in german?!?!? oh well. whatever. choir isn't that bad i suppose, i'm just all bitter because we have a concert coming up. it's next friday. that really sucks because i wanted to go home for the weekend. i don't really care though. i'm still want to go home. even if that means i'll just leave waterloopoo on saturday morning instead or something. i'm running outta socks. :) but yah. hmmm. choir...bleh bleh bleh.

i miss wazzy and the good ol days of the UHS concert choir...what the crap am i saying? hahahaha.

okay, WLU choir has officially messed up my brain.

hmmmm....i have two midterms in the next two days (wednesday and thursday) and i can't concentrate really. *sigh*

what i've learned through studying so far:
- psychology is super boring
- our brains are too complicated
- some philosophers talk too much
- they use too many hard words
- i'm definitely not a utilitarianist
- i really should have started reading earlier
- internet is a really good procrastinator
- highlighting is fun...
except when it gets on your hands

ahhhhhhh. oh goodness. must get back to reading. have a great day everyone :)

well...just got back to laurier and i'm feeling all tired and groggy - no good, because i have lots of work to do. well...mainly a theory assignment due tomorrow (that i haven't started at all) and studying. oh goodness. i have 2 midterms this week and i'm totally screwed. but anyways! this weekend was really fun :) justin, james, alli and me went up to queen's to visit!! what a nice looking campus - with all the historic looking limestone buildings...they were really pretty - although a little scary looking at night. but it's a really nice campus! i stayed over with angie - thanks angie! - and it was really cool getting to talk to her and know her a little better. we found out that we actually have quite a bit in common...so that's cool too! yay music majors! :) it was gracie's birthday on saturday so that's was cool how we could go have dinner with her. and who did we see in kingston while we were there?!?!?! anita, ivan and patty! hahaha. *u big stalker, anita! :P* heehee. it was really nice getting to see familiar faces - especially when there were so many new ones. all in all i had a great weekend. i would blog more....but my music assignment is waiting for me...so yah! i guess i should probably go now....here's to: conversations until 4 in the morning, playing pool on a big snooker table, fluke shots, sweaty jitz handles, that darn queens cafeteria :), 'janice wong's student id number, cramming 4 people in angie's room the second night...hope all y'all had as great a weekend as i did! :)

currently: procrastinating all my reading for as long as possible...ahhh...so much...

today was a pretty good one. i went to psychology (i didn't go at all last week). it turns out that what i was reading yesterday in order to catch up, was a chapter that my teacher isn't even teaching! goodness. but oh well. i was reading about consciousness and it was pretty interesting. even more so now, now that i know it's not gonna count for anything. *sigh* what can u do? then i went for lunch and i ate with justin, dawn, alex and amy. it was pretty nice getting to sit down and chat for a while...before the noon concert at maureen forrester recital hall. so that was pretty...interesting. flamenco dancing. it was okay i suppose. i don't really know enough about dance or anything like that to REALLY appreciate the program as much as others could have. :/ but some parts were really well done. the violinist was really good. very into the music and i thought he played really well. very expressively. that's probably what i liked most about the concert. :) anyways, then it was back to my dorm to do a little reading for philosophy before choir. we got let out early from choir today as the conductor did sectionals for the last part of rehearsal today - and it wasn't my section. sweet deal. :) so i left early. then i ate dinner with justin in the caf. and that was nice too. better than the usual, instant noodles. hehehe....(yah...u know it's true.) :)

anyways! i just checked my marks and i'm doing okay :) i'm soooooo happy with my program and everything - i know that there is always room for improvement but i'm satisfied with my marks at the moment. although, i won't stop trying...so hopefully the marks won't go down but up! funny thing is that i got 10% higher on my 2nd psychology test even when i only read one out of the three chapters. hahaha. and the first test i read all three chapters. i'll never study for psych again. ahhaha. just joking. :P i just need my marks for my piano lessons/masterclasses and choir - but i think they should be pretty good...hopefully :) but seriously, i'm so happy where i am right now. for those choosing what to go into for university...totally lift it up to God. He'll show you where to go. who woulda thought, my back-up plan would become my first choice? and i wouldn't have it any other way. i remember i felt something urging me to go into music, but i totally hesitated and wished that God had a different plan for me - preferably the same plan that i had for myself. last november, i didn't even put music or laurier as one of my university choices. but ever since i decided to go in this direction - to give up my own wants, aspirations and ambitions - things just kinda came together better. i look back at my past - my experiences, my memories, my conversations - and i totally see God's hand there. He's really something. now, i can't imagine myself anywhere else, taking anything else. i just can't. and i couldn't be any happier. God knows what's best for you. just leave it to Him, trust Him, follow Him...and enjoy the ride. :)

the s u p e r blog...

sorry for the delay in my blogging. i guess i'm just a lazy bum...but hopefully this will make up for it...anyway, i digress. i'll start from the beginning of my super-long weekend. :)

w e d n e s d a y [nov.6] - coming home

wednesday was pretty good...i ended up not going to philosophy again (goodness. i need to go to my next one. i haven't been to one since my midterm exam! oh well. just need to motivate myself to read i suppose). instead i came home early! yay!!! yup, that's right. i skipped my thursday and friday classes so i could go back to TO for my commencement. yes I, Sharon, have officially commenced. :) didn't really do much when i got home...watched Gilmore Girls...on TV (as opposed on my computer) and it felt...great! i love gilmore girls. *sigh* :)

t h u r s d a y [nov.7] - commencing

thursday was pretty good. it felt good waking up, putting my feet over the side of the bed and feeling carpet. :) (my bathmat on my tiled res floor just isn't the same, u know?) i woke up about 9 30ish (about the same time i would've woken up for class, and i couldn't fall back asleep) so i went downstairs to have breakfast with mommy. then she left for work and i started...i don't even remember what i did. hehehe. i just wasted time until about 12ish, then 'a makeover story' came on and i watched that for a while. then, that night was commencement. it was really nice seeing everyone again - especially those whom i haven't seen since the last day of high school in june. so, although it was extremely boring to sit through everyone, it had its good points too. afterwards we all went back to UHS for the refreshments and whatever afterwards. it felt really wierd being in that building again. but whatever. those days are over. :) hahaa. although in some way, i'll miss them. then we were supposed to go for jap noodles, but they were closing. so instead of hunting for an open restaurant (like everyone else) me and lil decided to go back to my place. it was really nice getting a chance to catch up with Lil - since we haven't talked in what seems like...forever. then josh came over also and the three of us were talking - until lil fell asleep on the couch. heehee. silly lil. that day, i realised how much i missed seeing some school people. but at least we can still talk when we're all in town. :) thanks for the talks. really.

f r i d a y [nov.8] - alli/james/sharon day

ooh! today was fun! i went outlet shopping with alli and james today on orfus. hahaha. i got us lost on the way there. oops. typical me. :) i left the directions at home again. i wonder why i always tend to do that - figure out directions to a place, but then forget them at home when i need them the most. anyway, at least we got there alright. :) then we each bought one thing, not spending more than $20 each. then it was off to downtown TO. james had some crazy driving and had a little episode with a guy in an intrepid...but we won. muahahahaha. good job. :) and it was fun. then we went to the ROM. oh good ROM times. i remember when i used to go every year with Lisa Yap-Chung and her mom, way back when we were really young. hehehee. we'd always go to the batcave and have the time of our lives. ahhaha. it was great. so that place brought back some really good memories. so we went and got a little more cultured (right alli?) :) along with laugh our heads off AND we went to the batcave. i still love it. :) some things just never change...

s a t u r d a y [nov.9] - sharon day

saturday was my chillaxin day. it was really...relaxing. i didn't really do much. i slept in, talked to velsie on the telephoner, i watched tv and i went shopping again. i first went to michael to get wool for mommy, then to club monaco where i bought grey sweatpants (which are the most comfortable pair of pants ever made...honest. exactly what i've been looking for. e x a c t l y. sweet deal.) then it was off to chapters to look for justin's present (and they didn't have it. so poo on them. ahahha. *imagining poo getting dumped on chapters.* hahaha. sorry. i'll move on.)i went to first markham to get my glasses cleaned (with the super-cleaner machine in the store) and the owner remembered my name! yay! :) then i got them adjusted and tightened because they were getting awfully loose. then i went to jacob outlet, then i came home. and started to clean my room, but then got all distracted when i came across pictures. i love looking at pictures. so the cleaning room process kinda...didn't work. BUT...i now have pictures on the wall of my dorm. :) then i talked to velsie on the telephoner again (it was good talking times! so it went for quite some time...) then i called justin, and that was the end of sharon day. :) it was great shopping alone - shopping with people is really enjoyable...but there's something about shopping alone that appeals to me. although i don't mind shopping with others as well...in fact, i did that the day before :)

s u n d a y [nov.10] - the end

sunday was the end of my mega-weekend. it was nice going to etcbc again. ahhaah. i was there the week before as well but too bad. uncle steve spoke about the heart of missions. he used the sponge analogy - how we need to be revitalized in Christ so we can have something to give, instead of walking around like dry sponges. i think that i dry out too easily, but i don't go back to the water source frequently enough - so i walk around a lot, a dry sponge. so that's gotta change, and i know what needs to be done, it's just a matter of doing it. but it was a pretty good message. i really like that analogy. dry sponge times much cease. *sigh* much work to be done on my spiritual life. after church it was time to come back to waterloopoo. this time - for the first time - when we were returning to waterloo i didn't have the same feeling of dread anymore. i think i've fully adjusted. :) so i came home, and packed away all my stuff (and believe you me, i had a lot of stuff! thanks will and alli for helping me carry everything up to my room, and much thanks to will for the ride!) then i got to see justin again! yay!! i hadn't seen him since wednesday. and yah, i did miss him. so it was nice to see him again. :) then we watched 'big fat liar' and it was pretty funny. and then watched 'serendipity'. i love that movie. it was a perfect way to end my super weekend.

i had so much fun this weekend. so thanks to everyone who helped make it so fun...good times. so few days, but many memories. anyways, this blog is soooooo long. thanks for reading - and for making it this far! hahaha. and i'll try to blog more frequently in the future...bye! take care and God bless! :)

short and simple...

yesterday was a crazy day.

maybe a little too crazy for my liking...

intense pain i've never like that felt before.

an event that shook me up.

a day full of sleeping.

a day with prayer.

but i'm feeling better now...

thanks justin.

but most of all....thanks God. :)