brooke fraser | a l b e r t i n e

...like a breath of fresh air, this is music to my ears. and heart.

three of three

today i heard back from the final university i applied to (and my first choice of all three.) it came in a small envelope so as i opened it i was preparing myself for another rejection, but instead it said that i made it onto their waitlist. even though it's not a "yes, you're in!" i'm still pretty excited to have made it onto the list and even happier that they said that my application was excellent. :) so at the end of it all i got rejected once and waitlisted twice - an improvement from last time so regardless of whatever happens at least i will feel like i accomplished something. yeah. i'm happy. there is still hope. :)

and the waiting continues to continue...

two of three

i've been waitlisted at one of the remaining two universities i applied to (read: there is still hope, even if the chance is slim.) :) i'm actually just really happy that there was some improvement relative to my last attempt. kinda makes me feel like all my hard work and sweat wasn't totally for nothing. anyway, still haven't heard anything from my first choice - not sure if this is a good thing or not - but i'm thinking i'll most likely hear back from them within the next week or so. this is nerve-wracking.

the waiting continues...

severus snape and the funny youtube video

i just couldn't resist posting this. BAHAHAHHAA!

one of three

so i didn't make it into one of the programs i applied to. sucks, but that's ok. even though i'm pretty crushed, i can't really do anything other than keep my chin up and just wait for the next two results to come in. i truly did try my best, and i think God recognizes that, so regardless of whatever the outcome may be i will have that to hold onto. and that (ideally) should be enough, right?

one down, two to go. :/

Easter Sunday: three days later...

There in the ground His body lay,
Light of the world by darkness slain;
Then bursting forth in glorious day,
Up from the grave He rose again!
And as He stands in victory,
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me;
For I am His, and He is mine -
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.

Good Friday: Remember...

...and be thankful.

last night as i was waiting for my eyes to close until the morning, i remember my heart feeling heavy with a sense of anxiousness, impatience, and frustration at my lack of control in this whole situation. since i could feel that i was still minutes away from drifting off to sleep, i decided to take the time to cry out for patience and a sense of peace despite everything when suddenly the thought "Not my will, but Yours" came to mind. i immediate became very aware of the fact that on the same very night (at least symbolically) 2008 years ago, Someone Else cried the same words out into the stillness of the night, distraught, broken, and pleading, with the weight of the world on His shoulders - literally.

at that moment the verses recited at every communion came flooding into my mind and the depth of those words, the graveness of His situation, and the realness of it all, truly pierced me. my heart instantly felt so much lighter as i was overwhelmed with a sense of gratitude and peace, and enveloped in His love as i drifted off into sleep.

He stayed awake that night so I could sleep.
He gave His life so i could live.

Amazing Grace, indeed.

the waiting game

it's been a while since my first attempt, but once again i find myself in the same place as i was two years ago: waiting.

it's the worst part of the whole process and the part that takes the most strength because it's so much more than just waiting for a letter. i'm waiting to see what the next step is, waiting to see what direction to head towards, and waiting in expectancy because despite all the obstacles and setbacks that have come and will come my way, i'm still holding onto this promise:

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." - Jer 29:11-13

seeking, waiting, and trusting that my future is in good hands...

a weekend in montreal

this past weekend, a bunch of us went to montreal after scoring $1 greyhound tickets (return trip = $2.) best two bucks ever!

having gone on this trip with 5 awesome individuals, it's no surprise that at the end of it all we left montreal with a crapload of great memories and stories (complete with embarassing moments as well as many hilarious haha-pee-in-your-pants ones too.) from the accidentally stolen bottle opener to red thighs, to all the craziness in room 1421, to walking through snow, snow, and more snow after midnight to eat the best poutine ever (SO WORTH IT), the weekend was just crazy. and by crazy, i mean crazy awesome.

despite choosing one of the worst weekends to go (not only did we lose an hour, but we also had to wait for buses in and walk through the worst blizzard i've ever seen in my whole life - 45cms!), i wouldn't have changed a thing. and that's how much fun i had. thanks guys, you guys rock. :)

happy valentines day